I belong with you

My Eyes Still Look out for You !!

2011-07-21T11:25:00.000-07:00

Every morning, I wake up

With a hope of winning you back from the Gods.

And every night I lie awake in pain,

For, I keep failing to win you back.

Colors are all the same

And emotions seemed similar.

I cry for joy and laugh for sorrows

The long roads that I travel on,

Seemed to remind me,

That life moves on, no matter what happens.

But the parallel rail roads tell me that,

You’re always with me wherever I go in life.

I still smell you in the air around me,

And I see us together,

At places where our love once grew.

Whenever people ask me of you,

I reply them with my tears

And they never seem to dry.

Miss you in every little thing that I do.

Need you badly to start living my life,

With you and your love.

Love You!

Goddess of Love !!

2011-07-21T11:21:00.000-07:00

If you were an ocean,

I would spend you drop by drop

And if you were a drop

I would treasure you forever.

Either ways, it’s just you and only you.

Life with you or death without you,

Is all I need to take me through to you.

Time keeps running out ;

But your memories in me never fade away.

There are always high tides in my ocean of love

Every time I start to think of you,

And once again I start living you in me.

I keep losing myself to you

Every single time you blink an eye at me.

Hey Goddess of Love,

I stand here begging for your return,

For, my arms ache

Because they aren’t holding you any longer

And all my senses are long dead,

Ever since you were gone

Love is you, No matter where you are

And you will forever define it for me.

Though we are far apart,

Our souls are inter-connected.

Love You!

Life's Incomplete !!

2011-07-21T11:19:00.000-07:00

Life without love is never worth living

And love without you is never complete.

You’ve completed me in all ways, big and small

And your smile lightens my heart as ever.

A drop of tear from you and am broken down.

I always feel you in the air around me

Though I cannot see you anwhere,

Life’s always been a beautiful walk to remember

And I still pride in holding your hands

All through our journey called love.

A promise of never parting from You

Still defines my existence in this world.

Love You!

If this was a Movie ... ?

2011-07-21T11:16:00.000-07:00

Last night I heard my own heart, beating

And it felt like the footsteps of an Angel

That I’ve been craving for.

Time keeps moving on

Wanting me to move on in life,

I’m still reaching out for you,

Though I know you’re not going to be there,

For me, this time around.

Thinking about everything we shared,

With you and me,

May be am just going back too much

Wishing to live you in me all over again.

I really wish it were a movie

And you standing outside my door,

Waving through heavy rains

For me to come out and hold you tight,

And kiss you hard to let our love grow.

I hate the fate

That denied me a date

With you and your love.

Love You!

Life's empty without You !!

2011-07-21T11:14:00.000-07:00

Longer my nights become,

When I think about those days,

My mind, body and soul revolved around you.

You painted my life a beautiful sky

And filled it with your shades of love.

People called me crazy and they still do,

But I don’t care, for, it’s you all over me.

You changed my rules

And taught me to be my ownself.

I loved the way we loved,

May be because I had the best girl in the planet.

The colors fade away by themselves

And the music turns itself off

Whenever I think you are gone,

Too far beyond my reach.

Love came to us when we were

Too young for this world,

And it could never leave us,

For, we defined it in a better way.

You always shine in my sky,

As the brightest star, twinkling all the way through.

And I promise now girl,

That there’ll be no other stars in my sky.

Waiting for you to sweep me off,

One last time.

Love you!

Love is You

2011-07-21T11:08:00.000-07:00

I keep searching for your breathe,

In the air that surrounds me.

I keep searching for your tears of Happiness,

In the deepest oceans around me.

My heart pretends to beat

Just to keep me alive,

Ever since you were gone.

You are forever my reason,

For the sad smiles and happy tears.

Love was just love

Before it came to us.

And Love is You

After it became ours.

Miss you more than words ever mean.

Love You!

Happy Valentine's day

2011-07-21T11:06:00.000-07:00

A day that dawned so beautifully,

With a mind that’s been thinking of

You every moment it exists,

A heart that’ll forever beat your name,

Eyes that sees you in everything they see

Ears that hear you in everything they hear

Smile and tears joining hands together

Whenever you come dancing thro’ our memories,

With a love that’s possible

Only between “My You” and “Your Me”

I’m here wishing you

A very happy “Valentine’s day”.

Love You!

The Journey !!

2011-07-21T11:03:00.000-07:00

The journey seemed like a never-ending One,

The roads seemed to go on and on forever

The trees withered in the sands of time

Skins wrinkled and Pages were worn out,

Only to be torn.

Batteries down and the clocks grew old with time.

Black hair turned grey and eyes seemed less beautiful

The good became bad and the bad turned evil

Speeches were made without words,

And words changed their meanings.

The rocks were aging,

And the sun became warmer.

Hearts lost love and people lost Humanity.

Though whole world transformed itself into another,

Here lies a soul that still loves you more

With every passing moment of his life,

Travelling together with your memories,

Like railway tracks, Never destined

To be in each other’s arms till an eternity.

Love You!

Come Back Lav!! Plsss ........

2011-07-21T10:58:00.000-07:00

Holding my breath,

And skipping a beat in my heart,
Every moment you come into my mind.
Sadness and pain have for long
Been my closest friends
Ever since this earth refused to hold you.

I still am holding onto You
With a hope that You can’t be gone this soon
Leaving me alone in this dreadful world
That once loved you and held you in her arms.
My life with you has always been,
The best moment of my whole life,
For, I got Love, Life and You.
Please come back to me soon
We’ve got a whole live to live.
Love You!

Sleepless Nights

2011-07-21T10:54:00.000-07:00

Here I’m as always,

Spending sleepless nights

Forcing laughter and faking smiles

Living our memories alone

In a place called “Here”

That was once meant to be Ours.

This night is moving away into a dawn,

And I still live,

Amidst walls of uncertainty

Shifting my eyes through the darkness of nights

Desperate to find your face in it

But as always I get to,

Wake up to the tear-wetted pillows of mine.

Please don’t fall in love with the Gods,

Please don’t let him love you,

Walking to and fro in our room

Wishing for a knock on the door, by you.

But life’s after-all a dream

Ever since you were gone.

Love You!

The Elixir of my Life

2011-07-21T10:50:00.000-07:00

It’s been too long,

Ever since I wake up to the brightness

Of your ever-glowing face.

And it is so deeply carved into me,

That I can hardly let it go off me.

Wish I could accept this fate,

That denied me a Life with you.

And I wish I could still love God

Even after he ripped You off my life.

Your silence screams Good-bye

And that’s frightening me to the end of my world.

When we thought we had control,

Our love got burned down by fate.

And I fell from the height of our love

Down to the hardest reality called “Life”.

Waiting with broken hopes and bleeding heart,

Pumping your love into me,

Every little moment I live.

Love You!

You're the One

2011-07-21T10:45:00.000-07:00

I can forever see you and feel you,

In my dreams,

That’s always belonged to you.

But a voice deep inside me

Wakes me up, hitting me hard

That you’re gone too far, beyond my reach.

Is life all about being kicked around?

And taken for a ride

By Egoistic and soul-less people.. ?

After all life is a game too, Isn’t it.. ?

Life just moves on,

With every passing day giving me

A little more time to get over you

I don’t know if I can move on from you

Fighting the odds of today

To start fighting the tomorrows of my life.

It hurts to live my life without you

But the pain’s definitely worth it.

You are all I need

To fall in love again.

Love You !

Waiting for You !!

2011-07-21T10:41:00.000-07:00

There’s a song,

That keeps running through my mind

Whenever I think of you

And the way you loved me.

My heart skips its beat

For , I come to realize,

That you aren’t mine anymore.

I just kneel down to the ground,

Fold both my hands together

And pray to be yours and only yours

For I know that you’re my only hope.

I gave you my destiny

And I gave you every little piece of me

Only to be left alone

In a world that’s never meant to be ours.

It hurts not to see you on me

And it kills not to see you with me

With a never-dying hope,

I still live my life, the way you wanted it to be.

Waiting for you near the gates of Heaven

Only to make you mine and never leave you again.

The Connection

2011-07-21T10:35:00.000-07:00

Her thoughts rush in, Like Air

That rushes to fill in a vacuum.

A void that existed is now no more.

Because of her grace and love

I still can’t get enough of her,

And I crave for more and more moments,

That would turn into eternities together.

A kind of madness prevailing in me,

Like the early morning fog,

Too stubborn to even move away.

A changed meaning of Life,

With a deeper sense of joy around me,

A beautiful world is what I see,

Through her eyes.

Though life is Mechanical,

It’s been meaningful since I met her.

Every little word I say to her,

Always meant more than what they really did.

My ego’s and attitudes packed their bags,

And I’ve always seen the best of me, through her.

Life is never about being perfect,

But it’s all about accepting imperfections

And still loving the one for who they really are.

A sacrifice, so sublime and so pure,

In its truest of senses.

I still re-live those moments,

Which were ours back then,

And get suffocated with her Love.

A smile finds its way to my lips

And a beautiful feeling,

Embraces my heart with warmth

whenever I think about her.

She’s an invisible force,

pulling through my being.

I resisted, but all in vain.

I Love You!

Memories on a paper

2011-07-21T10:29:00.000-07:00

You may be too far away from me,

But I can always feel you in me.

Writing words that mean much more

Than what they seem to be

To let you what I’ve been through

Since the time you were gone.

It’s always been only you, who understands,

The weird turns of my restless mind

And the unfortunate beats of my lonesome heart.

I leave you words,

Written on the sands of time

Hoping you would read them

Before the time runs out.

I still find your arms the safest of all

And your love, the purest of all

It’s far too bad and a disgrace

That I couldn’t travel “THE JOURNEY”

With you one last time

And that will forever remain,

The unforgiven mistake of mine.

Writing words of love, to let you know

That you were, are and will forever be,

My reason to live and love

It’s you whom I’ll turn to, for love

You are the best beat my heart’s ever had

And you’ll forever be the best breathe

That I’ve ever had.

Miss you with me, but never in me.

Fate ..... ?

2011-07-21T10:23:00.000-07:00

They called it fate

And I call it an accident

The pain is Gone

But the sadness still exists

Death had never bothered me

Till I saw her Die

Certain Memories are Joy

And some are real pain

An early morning Song

Spreads its sadness on me for the whole day.

Whenever people smile,

I see the sadness that was to follow

And whenever people cired,

I saw the happiness that was waiting

Around the corner.

If this is Fate,

Then I’d hate it.

If this was meant to be an accident,

I’d rather live with it.

Unsaid Love

2011-07-21T10:20:00.000-07:00

I love the feeling

That wants me to be yours forever.

My Unfulfilled Love for you

Is always hard to digest.

Just a mere thought of you

Heightens every little sense of mine.

My days are lived through my dreams at nights.

You magnify my emotions and made me feel a Man.

I still have a lot of Unsaid Love

That’s waiting to be spelled to you

In its own beautiful ways.

I’ve been feeling this feeling

Which belonged to us

You’re autumn, now mine as spring

With a metallic finger – ring

On a turquoise day wedding

As green olives awaiting

All my memories yearning

Awaiting my love, With love

Though I know for a fact

That you can never be mine again

Living with a hope

That you’ve given me

Life or Death, Its with you.

Miss You Lav!!

2011-07-21T10:16:00.000-07:00

I don’t have words to express,

I don’t have tears to shed,

I don’t have a reason to smile,

And I don’t have a hand to hold me,

All I have is the desire to be yours forever.

I lay awake at nights

And the colors fade out

My vision blurs with loneliness

And suddenly I realize tears

Flowing down my cheeks.

I still keep praying God

To hold you safe in the Heavens

I smile whenever I look at the skies

For I know you are there, watching me from the Heavens.

You’ve always been my reason

To Live and Love the way I do.

Will I Ever Get Over You ........ ?

2010-09-10T23:12:00.000-07:00

Whenever people ask me to forget You
And move on with my Life
I smile inside of me
Wishing to ask them
How can i ever move on
When my life is gone with the Love of my life ....
Its a Myth that am Still alive
Even after you're Gone.

My Mind asks me to
Forget Her name thats always been the first thing i utter
Forget Her Face thats tatooed deep into my Heart
Forget Her Kisses thats been the cause of my survival
Forget her warm Embrace that was meant only for me
Forget Our Love thats always been the root of our Lives
Forget that She was Mine
Forget You being my Skin and Me being the best beat of Your Heart
Forget Her when our favourite song was played
Forget Her Walks n Her Beautiful Talks
Forget Her Beautiful Eyes that had a lot of Unsaid Love in them
Forget the way I held Her tight
Forget the time that went so fast

Remember She's Gone Forever
Miss You Lav ......

Will I Ever Get Over You Lav ....... ?
My Heart Answers
Never ................
Luv U My Lav .........

Reaching out for U ..

2010-09-10T22:45:00.000-07:00

When you smiled, I smiled with you,

When you cried, I feel it deep into my Heart

You are my soul, my heart reaching out to you,

Even after knowing that You can never come back to be Mine

Be my eyes when I can’t see,

Be my voice when I can’t speak,

Be my life when darkness creeps on me,

Throw the stars that shine so bright,

Cross the sky and cross the night to be with Me Forever

Trying to Make ways to be right by your side

Hold me close and never let me go

Hold me tight even when am not with You

Save the love we have forever

Cos I'll die to keep loving You as i always did ..

Save me, when my dream catches fire

Spare me, in my only desire

Wake me, when the pain is over

Take me, now with You

Love You So Much My Lav ...

Rest In Peace .....

Waiting for You :-)

2010-08-21T09:14:00.000-07:00

How is it that I can feel you so deeply in Me
Even after You were Gone
Sometimes I feel so close to You
But You're so very far away.

If I can't touch You,
I hope I can at least touch Your heart.
For You have touched my heart
in a very special way.

It seems that fate brought us together.
I was so alone until I found You.
Now, whenever I think of You,
I can't help but smile.

During the day
my thoughts often turn to You.
Our daily conversations
Are the highlight of my day.
I long for the day
when I can touch You, hold You,
feel Your warm embrace.

I want to see Your lovely smile
just before the sweetness.
I want to walk with You along the beach,
In all places that ever exist.

I want to treat You the way
You should be treated.
With all the respect, affection, and tenderness You deserve.
I am patiently waiting for You.
Because I know in my heart..
''You are more than worth the wait''.
I really 'am waiting for You to hop into my arms one more time
And this time, I Swear On God..
Am Never Gonna Let You Go ... :-)

To My Most Wonderful Lav !!

2010-08-21T05:23:00.000-07:00

I sit here on this cold night
There's one bright star in the sky that i see
I wish I could find Happiness
But all I could do is Cry

There are memories of You in my head

There’s loneliness in my heart
I wish my life wasn't so hard
And that we weren't so far apart

You in Heaven n I in Hell

I miss that fire in your eyes
I miss the way you smile
You took away that empty feeling
and made every thing worth.

I know you touched my heart

With a Love that can never be replaced

You cared for me like no one else did

You Promised never to let me go

But you did go away to the Gods above me

I love you so much
with all my heart and it still hurts so much

To even think that You can never belong with me Anymore.

Though We are You n I now

Nothing can still separate You being in me

And Me being in You

Miss you my Heart ...

Maa ..... You are the Best

2010-07-31T03:00:00.000-07:00

I woke up in the middle of the Night feeling Insecure
Darkness around me all of a sudden
I couldn't feel the fresh Air around me
I couldn't see the whirling fan or the Dim table -lamp
All i could ever see was Darkness ..

I couldn't think about things that usually occupy me
I couldn't text my friends or even talk to them
I couldn't continue reading my favorite book
The Music that i usually listen to seemed mute
The awesome football game between my favorite teams seemed blank
But There was a definite calmness around me

I felt like i was floating on some water body
Whenever i felt Hungry it seemed like the food reached down to me
To satisfy my Hunger ...
It seemed like someone was holding me onto them
I could feel them Moving carefully .... Cos i was holding onto them
I could feel their happiness whenever i moved
I didn't really Know Who i really was ......... Everything seemed to forget ...
It all seemed like a miracle n there was Peace all around me ..

There was a sudden Cry of Pain
I was yearning to tell her that I never wanted to hurt her this way
I really wanted to Cry out my Promise to her that i'll never give her any more pain in life
I could feel myself moving
I could feel the water body that was holding me getting completely drained off
I could see myself moving slowly towards Bright Light
I could sense somebody Pushing me out
I could see HER hold on me withdrawing itself
I couldn't open my eyes or feel anything for a moment or so
I felt someone slapping me hard

I suddenly came back to my senses n realised who i really was
I cried out My promise to my Mom that i will never ever Hurt her again in life
I could see her physical pains draining off as soon as i cried my promise out to her
She laid me close to her ... on her Heart filled with Love
I could feel her kissing all over me ...
Well really wished to die on her lap cos i wanted her to be my start n end ....

Maa ....... Thanks for bearing me amidst all your Physical n mental pains ......
I promise to be yours forever ..... Never will i leave u maa .......

I Belong With You

2010-07-31T02:02:00.000-07:00

I wana hold Your Hands and walk miles together
I wana hold you in my Heart for Eternities together
Never wana miss You even if its for a While
You know why my life is so beautiful
Cos You come in right away n Fill it with Love,Love n lots of Love...

Hug me harder for my worries to die
Hold me up for my tears to dry
Love me girl, For my loneliness to fly away ..
Your Pains are Mine
Your Sorrows n Tears are Mine

I'am really Selfish when it comes to Loving You
I'am really Happy that this World calls it "Possessiveness"

I can feel u deep within me every little second
No God's can ever explain this feeling between us
Is this what we call Love ...............?
Well ... It is something more than Love
Something more than even the God can define
It is something more than Love,God or Humanity.
It can only exist between u n me ..
Cos You are bing Yourself n am being Myself n
We are being Ourselves together.

I keep myself awake every night just to Watch u Sleep
I empty my thoughts just to listen to You
I keep myself blank for You to fill me up ..
I keep myself awake just to look into Your Most beautiful eyes n say
"I Love You"
My mornings Miss You
My Evenings Seeks You
Where were You all these days ........................ ?

A Lifetime is never gonna be Enough to Love You
Lots of Unsaid Love still remains deep into my Heart
Take me with You

I belong with You..... Now n Forever ........

My Sweetest Dream n a Beautiful Nightmare

2010-07-30T22:25:00.000-07:00

I saw my Angel the Moment I met Her
Her Beauty so Enchanting,Refined, Eloquent, Pure n Divine
Her eyes so Hypnotizing
Her face so Refreshing
Her Perfume still smells on Me
Her Beautiful Dark Hair, Darker than the Darkest of Nights
Her Skin so soft, Delicate n Bright
Her Figure, So feminine, Pleasing n Delightful
Her beautiful Shyness that always belonged to me
Well ... She was truly Beautiful n Delicate

We Spoke, Shared, Cared, Laughed n Cried in our own World
Her Mind, So Profound, An Articulation of speech so Rare
A friend in Joy
A Comfort when i was in tears
My Worst Enemy at Fights ( Love)
Well .. My Lav was all i can ever ask for.

Time was too short, An Eternity desired
A Love Lost
Memories Gained
A Dream Entrenched, Oh how sweet She was ... Even in my Dreams
She's the Dream of Dreams
The Thought of her Startles my Deep Sleep
I awake only to see that am all Alone again n Forever
Without Realising that she's Gone forever
Gone with the Wind
To make Life Beautiful for Gods
Where are You my Lav ....................... ?
Beneath the sands of time ............?
Inside the Womb of Mother Earth .?

Our Story once Lived
A Dream once Believed
Wishing for a last Kiss, One last Word, One last Hug n One last Love...
All Unsaid Love is still yearning to be Yours
Waiting to be in Your Arms- As Your Beautiful Love...
We were the Most Beautiful Love on Earth
Cos We Only Belonged To You n Me ...

Rest In Peace Lavina
I will keep Loving You Forever
With the Pain of Missing You in My Heart
Our Beautiful Memories bringing Smiles n Tears Together
Love You So Much My Lav ............................................
I will forever remain Yours .......

Rest In Peace

My Broken Heart ..

2010-07-23T21:31:00.000-07:00

A Broken Heart is what i feel
It leads to flowing tears
The sorrow from this Loneliness
Gives way to deeper fears ..
I'am hurt from inside
After i lost you to the Gods
I'am asking to myself
How could this end so suddenly ............... ?
I felt like i could Die ..

It wasn't very Long ago
That You n Me Embraced each other
It feels like only yesterday
And my soul's displaced now
I'am trying to find a peaceful thought
Where we and our Love were so strong
But in the Absence of You
I'am Literally dying every second to be with You.

For all the times we've Kissed
For all the times we've Laughed
For all the times we've Hugged
For all the times we've Loved
For all the times we've cried
For all the times we've lived beautifully
Your touch is what I've missed ..
I hope there comes a day
When our truest Love will re-unite in the Heaven
That day I'll wipe away my Lonely tears
Those tears that'd been wetting my pillows every night
Waiting to come back to You
To re-unite with the Love of my Life ..... You ........
Our Love is truely Unbreakable ........

Reaching for the Love that seems an Eternity Away

2010-07-23T19:59:00.000-07:00

This can never be a Good-Bye
Even as i watch You leave this Physical World of Ours
Flowers being thrown all the way till Your Grave
My heart's full of thorns just cos i couldn't be with You Now
I really Hope you REST IN PEACE
This world can never forget You and Our Love ...

I really hope You don't see my tears of pain
But
I wish You were here to heal my heart just once more
Whenever i close my eyes, there's an Image of Your Face
I cry my heart out
Realizing that You can never be replaced in my Heart
I keep telling myself that You are my Heart-beat forever
And
When that becomes wrong, I'll be there with You
Proving my Love for You once again
By being with You forever....
Miss you my Love
In my heart
In my Beat
In my Smile
In my Happiness and In in Body n Soul .......

Hey My Love

I've been feeling terribly Lonely

Since the day You were Gone

Why did You have to leave me .......... ?

You were the Only One in my Heart

And

Your memories will Live on Forever and Ever

Walks down our beautiful city

Where our Love was Young and Free

Looks empty without You and Our Love

I would give my Life Away

If i ever have the chance of starting it all over again

With You My Love

I can never stop the voice Inside of Me

Thats been calling out Your name every Moment

Hey Girl, I would die this very moment only to be

Reborn and keep loving You the way i do

In all my Bloody Births to come

Miss You My Love .....

I say a lot a prayers for You to come back to me

From Your Grave ...

I really hope my dreams will take me to You

Where the skies are blue and the leaves are green

To see You once again

Over the sea's from Earth to Heaven

To find the place We Loved the Most

I'am just holding onto You a bit Longer

Reaching for the Love that seems an eternity away

Only to be yours all over again

Miss You My Love ...

I Cry

2010-07-12T22:20:00.000-07:00

You said Good-bye
I broke into pieces
Fell into the burning flame of Loneliness
Fell from the Height of our Love
You told me that you were going to Heaven
Without even realizing
My Heaven would be a Hell without You
If you could see me now
You will see how
I fail to even survive the "Tomorrows of my life"
Without You.
Need you so madly Baby
I Miss you so much more than the words can ever mean..

I cry Silent Tears
I cry inside of Me
I cry cos i Miss my Heart thats in You
I cry Hopelessly
Cos I know that
I can never breathe your Love again
My mind always wonders
Why did i ever let things slip away ......?
I just can't stand another day without you Baby
This feeling without you is hurting me so badly
Please come back to me n let me be yours again .

I know i can't wake up for tomorrow without you near me
I come by your Grave n spend time with you everyday
I cry out loud hoping that You would come out of it
to wipe my tears n heal my Heart just once more
Baby .. When i promised I will always be with you n
Never part from you even in Death ...
Y did i let you go ???????
I miss you baby ... With tears in my eyes n My Broken Heart Bleeding you love every moment.
Pleaseeeeee come back me ...
I'll never let u go this time ... I Swear ....
I wanna be yours forever ... even in Death.
I'am Crying forever
Cos I Know I can never breathe your Love Again.

Women

2010-07-10T22:39:00.000-07:00

Things have changed forever
Time has stood still
No longer am'i the little girl that i used to be
The memories will remain close in my Heart, But the Innocence is gone forever
Through time, marriage, children, So much knowledge about life has been gained
And yet so many questions still remain Unanswered
Will the answers ever unfold ....................?
Attitude and thoughts are now conceived so differently
Who are the real friends and who are the real enemies ....... ?
Who and what are the real Priorities ......?
Will i still lose myself in trying to do things for everyone else ................?

I think not ..
The most valuable lesson life has taught me
My soul needs nourishing too
But which path should i take to do so ....? Only i can decide that.
The impact might be great but i will stay strong till the end
I now carry myself in a different way
Some say for good n others say for worse
As long as i remember the wounds of the past n things that have come out of it
I will be the only one who can things about me ..
Its my life n i live it my way.
Emotions are so high, and so low, and in between
I run fast n chase them all day long
Never really knowing which one s going to be mine
At this point n time of my life, I have been put to a Stern test
But i really know i can give it my best shot
There are thoughts that i still hold on to
There are angels still guiding me through the right path as ever
I do know that there will always be a CALM after a STORM
which my life is now
I do know that Tomorrow will b a new day for me .... With a new sunrise
And each person that has true passion n Unconditional love for me
Will stand by me n hold me whenever i fall.

Though wounded by things that have happened in my till now
I know i still have my saving Grace
I shall be aware, and full prepared to face the years ahead of me
They will bring more change
Is that not what time is after-all supposed to do ???
Heal my heart once again
But i know i can survive even if the little girl in me had disappeared
I can still reflect back on the Wonderful memories i had
After all if it had not been for her, I could never be the Woman that i'am now
Even though her memories will always haunt me.

Now is the time to say Good-bye to the Innocence of my Child-hood
And really concentrate and savor the Innocence of my Woman-hood.
Woman-hood is always a pride n Be proud to be a Woman.

An Extract From My Mail ..

Come Back To Me ....Please ..........

2010-07-10T07:49:00.000-07:00

Whenever I wanna smile
There's always a drop of tear reminding You
Reminding the fact that You're Gone
Gone with the Wind .. Too Far
Out of my reach.
Does those tears tell u something ...........?
Something that i've been yearning to tell u
   To tell you that my heart is missing a beat every little moment without You
   To tell you that You'e my Happiness n i miss my smile ever since you were gone
   To tell you that i always Love being yours n only yours
   To tell you that i love it " when u were mine"
   To tell you that I'll keep loving you till my soul stops breathing.

Every-time the clock ticks
My mind starts thinking about you
It really pains so much to even think you're gone
So much that my brain keeps telling me that "I MISS HER"
Whenever i see happy couples together
I cry out Happy tears cos i see " us in them "
Its always such a pride to even think that You're mine
I wanna thank you for being "mine in me" ....

You defined my love n let me define yours
Together we defined True Love
Something that is rare n pure
Something that belonged only to us
Whenever i think about you sitting alone with the angels in the heaven above me
My eyes cry out bloody tears
My heart misses a beat every second
Wish i could be there with you ...
Let the Angels in the Heaven wait for a moment
Let the moment turn into an Eternity
Waiting for you to come back to me
Be mine forever .. heal my heart one more
Touch me n let my pain disappear
Look deep into me n keep pumping your love into me
Yearning to hold you in my arms n tell you how much you mean to me ..
Waiting for our lips to hide into each others

The Gods don't deserve you up there in the heaven
Its me who needs u so madly n badly
Wanna be yours for eternities together
Waiting for you to come back to me
My eyes are wet
My words stammer
My walk is crippled
My heart is broken
Make me yours one again n never let me go
Love you so much baby ....... more than words can ever mean.

Will you come back to me ......???????
Will you be mine forever ........???????
Waiting for you ........With Broken Heart n Teary Eyes.

Motherhood

2010-07-09T23:55:00.000-07:00

I was crying tears of Pain
   As i pushed you into the world
   As i pushed you from the darkness of my womb to the bright world outside me.
I'am now crying tears of Relief to see u born alive when i was reborn as your Mother
I'am crying the tears of Love to see you smile when i held you for the first time
I'am now crying the tears of Arrogance and Pride as i keep looking at your divinely beautiful face
I'am now crying the tears of Happiness as you nurse my breasts for the first time
I'am now crying the tears of Satisfaction as you were able to finally locate my tender feminism
   and suck them hard for your feed.
The way your tiny fingers fondle my body
The way your soft lips suck my feminism
The way you look at me after a satisfied meal
   Only a Mother like me can feel the Heaven on Earth

I felt so much pleasure when you used to crawl inside my womb and i feel the same pleasure
  as you crawl into me every time you fall asleep.
Every time i take you for a bath, Your cute Naughtiness wet me fully
I pray God that the warm water shouldn't hurt my little one
Every time i take you in my arms, Your beautiful smiles and little whispers tell me that you
   love being in my arms as my little one
Every time i feed you, The way you take on me
   Hmmm ... You bring out the beautiful Mother in me
Every time i hold your hands, You seem to tell me
"Hey mummy i'll never let this hold leave me, I'll be yours forever"
Every time i kiss your white paws, I feel your purity n the softness in you
Your soft touches
Deep hard bites
Beautiful kicks
Marks left by your tiny nails
Every little thing that you do to me make me the proudest Mother that i'am today.

Your teary eyes when I cry and Your Big smile when i smile tells me that
   " You'll always be there for me, No matter what happens".
I feel so pure when i touch your tender parts n change diapers for you day n night
I forget my pain when i see your faintest smile
Your eager eyes searching for me when your hungry. Though I love it
   i would never let hunger strike you even if its for a second
I would laugh at my stupidity when i go for shopping and imagine you in every cute dress that i see
   forgetting that you are still a day's old baby
The toys that am going to buy for you would fill this little world of ours
I used to admire nature before you were born but now .. It seems so dull n unattractive.
  You are the most beautiful thing i will ever see in my life
I've heard Angels make life beautiful for people on earth n started experiencing is since the moment
   I was holding you in me.
I really hope You understand the Yearnings of this Crazy Mother of yours.
Love You Kiddie

Thank You for making me feel a Mother,

The Beautiful Motherhood

2010-07-09T07:13:00.000-07:00

Her Legs part wide, Stretched
Pain ripped through her stomach
Her eyes half closed n her voice Dying out
It felt like She pushed herself out of her own body

She couldn't feel my head out
She felt something burning at the other end of her body
Darkness prevailed and her eyes closed
She could sense Me moving inside her

Time had no real meaning, It was an Eternity
Hands held tight n aching muscles pained her
Body pushing through body
A chord twisted and finally tore
A single wail of breathe
A new moment of glory
I was Born

Thanks maa ..... For giving me life n showing me what love is all about.
Take a bow maa ..... Your Motherhood stands out n I promise
I'll always be yr worthy Kiddie ... Love u maa ... so much .....

The Hope Of A Child In Orphanage

2010-07-09T05:07:00.000-07:00

Each Night before I go to bed
I fold my hands and bow my head
Praying for the family thats gonna make me theirs
Waiting for the day SHE will come for me
I ask God to watch over my friends at the Orphanage
The place that i call my Temple
Wishing everyone of us finds families and relationships\
To share n care ..
I finish my prayers and get ready to sleep
With a hope that God would look at us soon
My prayers usually are my Dreams at nights
Hoping that she will be standing there for me
When i wake up to the brightness of her face

In a hope that one fine day , My name would be called
And i would jump off my bed and run towards the
Wonderful SHE i was waiting for ......
I would hug her.. shouting out " Oh mummy, oh mummy"
I've been waiting for U all these days..
And that she would reply " Yes my darling!
I've come to take u home"
I will love you, Protect you n cherish u till my end"
I will always be your love n care".

She would look at me with teary eyes n whisper deep into my ears
" I love u so much my baby" The words that ve been eluding me since
the moment i was born.
She held my hands gently n i held her with all my might
In the fear of being let alone again.
Hand in hand.. We walked together,
Deep emotions encircle me as I leave my temple
With my God.
I promised my friends that i would go n visit them every weekend
with my maa ..

Thus i found my life n let my mother find her happiness in me.
Love u maa ..

The Naughty She !!

2010-07-09T04:37:00.000-07:00

Beyond watching eyes
With sweet and tender Kisses
Our Souls reached out
In Breathless Wonder

And when i awake
From a vast n a smiling peace
I found You bathed in the Morning Light
Quietly studying
All the messages on my phone.
I'll Love You now n Forever.

This Is Life !!!

2010-07-09T03:58:00.000-07:00

One song can spark a moment.

One flower can wake the dream.

One tree can start a forest.

One bird can herald spring.

One smile begins a friendship.

One handclasp lifts a soul.

One star can guide a ship at sea.

One word can frame the goal.

One vote can change a nation.

One sunbeam lights a room.

One candle wipes out darkness.

One laugh will conquer gloom.

One step must start each journey.

One word must start a prayer.

One hope will raise our spirits.

One touch can show you care.

One voice can speak with wisdom.

One heart can know what is true.

One Life can make a difference.